Loy Young

An obstacle is something or someone that stands in the way and must be triumphed over, overcome.

This is clearly a Triumph Over Adversity Scenario – with the obstacle being what must be overcome or triumphed over to success. It can a physical person, a moral, a religious code, or a variety of scenarios.

There are of course our two lovers, and the obstacle itself. Here’s some examples: disapproval of parents, often disapproval of children, when parents are divorced with children wanting their parents to reconcile and tries to sabotage new relationship,

Disapproval of one’s pets of new person, disapproval of religion marrying outside the religion, or if one of lovers is divorced such as Catholic, inequality like royalty wanting to marry commoner and must denounce throne to do so, inequality of money, fame, by alcoholism, and the list goes on to And with aging comes some new ones, like disapproval from a spouse who has died but never left her husband or house.

Victim

And how would two victim lovers fare in this scenario? They wouldn’t, especially if they lacked emotional courage and could not speak up. Their love would not be enough, as the emotions fueling victims are of despair, failure, hopelessness would seal their fate…………

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And I would like to tell you it has not been easy getting these three to work together, because there has always been another voice, another person inside of me besides these three children. This person never felt like my child, but a foe, someone always trying to overthrow me, triumph over me, sabotage me, tempt me. When I was young, I simply called this person The Devil.
Sometimes, The Devil felt male, sometimes female, and finally I got it, The Devil could assume any form it chose. For awhile, I just felt full of conflict, but I was determined if I was going to live with this person my whole life, I better find the good purpose in its function, and that is when I made peace.

The Devil was there to tempt me, test me, ensure that I was thorough. And since I was not scared of The Devil, he/she went after me through my three children, Star my mental child who could be tempted with fame, glory, pride, all the mental addictions. And Lula Maye, she so wanted to be accepted, The Devil had quite a time with her for a long time tempting, testing, throwing her emotions totally out of control with all the emotional addictions. And poor Sarah, she could be tempted so easily with all the physical addictions.

As the years went by, I began to respect The Devil who I now mostly call The Dragon, who can change into as many shapes at the Devil, and the Dragon is more playful to me.Of course I had to develop a methodology to deal with the shadow inside of me which I called The Dragon Quest. I am always imagining The Dragon and I walking hand in hand, like two parents with there three children….Star, Lula Maye and Sarah. And indeed The Dragon always takes the role of the Devil advocate. But keeps me who I perceive as the good, the God within from being self righteous for even one second.

And last but not least in the Crazy, Madness, being different scenario is the Puppeteer outside of this physical dimension, who I call Souly for Soul. There are just too many coincidences; too many times I have felt like a puppet being merely a participant in the game of Life. Once I heard about the Second Life, alternative reality computer games where the player takes an avatar to be its expression in the game, I immediately wondered if I am just an avatar for the real player outside of this game. It would probably be boring if there were not an enigma before me to solves. Besides in my attempts to solve this, I got to develop another methodology for making contact with this part of me, the monthly energies program which surely will find its way to being upgraded once I finish with this body of data.

And now to talk about that third child of mine, my partially disabled child with a missing mechanical chip.  Maybe it was because Star was so far away into the cosmos and had so many ideas, it was impossible for my physical child to implement these ideas. Or Lula Maye was so emotionally expressive, that Sarah for Sarah Klutz felt overwhelmed by the emotional energy of Lula Maye. Whatever Sarah tripped over her own feet and was never grounded. Sarah Klutz feels like she has two left feet, and two left hands, the most uncoordinated person you would ever want to meet. She needed help from day one.

What a frustrating experience for both Star and Lula Maye, as it was Sarah that people saw and many thought she was just stupid, inept. But Sarah just could not keep up with either my mental child Star or my emotional child Lula Maye, Sarah was the victim of this trio.

Sarah kept saying, “wait there is only one of me, I could never implement all the ideas you have, some are just too big, beyond my abilities. Later in life she would use the analogy of Star being an architect, but Sarah was the person on the job, and ideas had to be revamped to her size. Sarah was not the talker, she was a doer, and a real hard worker, not a laggard at all, but no matter how many hours she would work, it was impossible for her to keep up with the ideas of Star or exhaust the emotional energy that Lula Maye would pump through her. And Sarah would plead to me, to come to her rescue, when she was all wrapped up in cords as she would fall off the stage, or she would have her dress on backward as there was no time for her to get dressed properly, if she were to keep up with Star and Lula Maye. Luckily I could hear her cry, and indeed I would try to come to the rescue.

It took years for me to get these three children working together, but each time I succeeded, I felt less and less crazy, less insane. I had to develop entirely different methodologies for each. Life Patterns, ending dualistic thinking for Star. Story regression for Lula Maye, my emotional child.Manifestation methodology for Sarah.

No longer are they going in three different directions, they know they need each other and indeed recognize that each are indeed different, with different functions to perform.                     

I have two more children, or multiple selves inside of me. I know what you think, they are not separate but aspects of me. At the moment, which is ever changing, they feel separate but all sharing the same space. My second child is my emotional nature, who I call Lula Maye. She is one passionate person, and at the beginning was always throwing water on Star, rejecting most of her ideas, as too grand. What about me is always her cry? You include me or I will sabotage every thing you ever think of. Well, Star, my mental child luckily was one smart person, and she now runs everything by Lula Maye, to indeed get her acceptance, as Stars knows then the plan will work. Or to get her rejection, as Star knows there is no use of trying to cajole, convince Lula Maye. Now Star values her and goes back to the mental drawing board, looking for yes answers that will include Lula Maye. And hand in hand they go. It was Lula Maye that said “phooey on your idea of physical immortality. I do not want to have to live forever with the hurts, the pain I feel inside. I want to die when I get too full, take a long rest.

Instead of being dissuaded, Star, was excited, “How many other people would not want to live forever either if they did not resolve their pains, their hurts? Lula Maye became the favorite laboratory subject, after all Star was so close to Lula Maye he could feel both her rejection and her acceptance immediately.

And Star tried lots of logical, reasoning methods and Lula Maye just yawned. But when Star asked her to identify the feeling that kept her from wanting to live forever, she would know. Unwanted was one of her biggest feelings as she felt so different,  and some feelings Lula Maye did not have names for.  But Star would have her draw the feeling, and tell Star a story that fit, real or imagined with the feeling. And then a label could be put on the feeling. That’s how we came up with the Range of Feelings lists.

The real break through was getting the emotional story, and then any other emotional stories associated with the feeling. Star thought the feelings should be in neat logical, linear, earlier similar type events. But not so, it was like going after a cluster of grapes, intertwined, and the only thing that was important was the intensity of the feeling until the pain or hurt in the feeling would become stronger or subside.

All stories were victim, or villain or attempt to be hero and failing. But Star could indeed help Lula Maye by having her change this story to one of her if she was a victim to become her own hero, if she were a villain to forgive herself first and then to imagine talking to other person asking for forgiveness (did not seem to matter if other person could not forgive her, that seemed to be their problem) but telling her side, indeed plea for forgiveness would release her. And if she was attempting to be hero but too strong, too controlling, then she would come up with a new way that would have worked.

And not only was the story changing, Lula Maye feelings would change also. In case of feeling unwanted, after going through several stories of feeling unwanted, Lula Maye started loving herself with each change, and then the whole grape like cluster of hurt lifted.

And the final test was now “With Lula Maye loving herself and knowing she can repeat scenarios until she indeed becomes a winner, much like in Ground Hog day, would she want to live forever? And finally the answer was yes, full on acceptance for the idea of physical immortality of Star. And since then anytime Lula Maye would come up with a hurt, Star was there to solve problems of the heart, or the emotional child. Star would help Lula Maye become her own heroine, always changing or transforming any tragedy into the desire to triumph.

They learned to be winners by respecting and accepting each other, and neither felt crazy when they worked together. 

Madness Insanity Scenario

Definition - It is defined by the Merriam-Webster dictionary as a deranged state of the mind or lack of understanding.

"I am not like everybody else, I am different. Is there something wrong with me? I do not feel like I belong, do you think I might be from another planet Sometimes I think I was born in the wrong century, I so different from everyone else. Maybe……maybe…………..do you think I am crazy? Am I mad? Insane? I hear voices inside of me, I have feelings that are nuts. I am going crazy, I feel torn in so many different directions."

Words similar to these I have heard from most clients that ever came to see me that were serious about discovering themselves.

And indeed I could have compassion, as early on I knew something was really wrong with me, I did not fit in. All I can say is it is a good thing that my mother and father were gone and I had no brothers and sisters to distract me. I might look normal on the outside, but I was not. Instead of just me, there were other people inside of me, and they were all different.

I had what everyone thought were imaginary playmates. But they were not imaginary to me, they were totally real even though I could not see them. I could feel them inside of me, and they had different voices, and wanted different things out of life. I would talk to them by the hour, and had a chest full of material, clothes that I would wear playing dress up, giving each voice full expression so I could discover each one’s uniqueness.

I had one person inside of me who would want to sleep outside, look up at the stars that were ever so bright out on the plains of Oklahoma where I lived. She told me stories of coming from afar, pointing toward the Big Dipper, telling me she was from far away. I actually discovered her when my dog was killed, and I was screaming at first Jesus and then God to give me my dog back, that death was not fair. That is the first time I actually heard words, and she told me that she was here to indeed help children like me to have everlasting life, to not die anymore.

Just you wait you will see. Anyway, I named her Star, and we would have great conversations, especially at night out under the stars. She seemed to know all the answers, like how many dogs there were on the moon, where I came from, which was same place as her, far far away and that is why I was so different, did not fit in. I still talk to her, often. I have renamed her many times, and now think of her as my mental child. And she works side by side with me, finding answers to the mysteries of life. She has continued to be adamant that she is here to help those that are ready to become immortal, and no longer die. Now the words are physical immortality. What a journey her quest for physical immortality has taken us, my years of regressing people into past lives or their subconscious was due to her influence.

For awhile, I thought she meant to become aware that we are already immortal, the part of us that separates at death, and we have lived many times as in reincarnation. But each time I would say this, she would say something like, ‘just you wait and see, that is why I am here, and now she chants physical immortality, it is like that is her enigma to solve. Now you would think that she would have wanted us to become a scientist that deals with the physical realm, but no, doing just what we do, exploring the inner is both our laboratories. My mental child is clearly my oldest child.

Part Two - Insanity Tomorrow

This is another scenario that I been totally engaged with throughout my life.

The fact that I was a mortal and God was an immortal for whatever reason didn’t scare me. I fully intended to end up immortal just like God.  If he could do it, why couldn’t I? 

One of my favorite Bible stories was David and Goliath, who with just a sling shot downed the mighty Goliath. Well, if David could do it, why couldn’t I was my thinking as a child. And this scenario indeed began as a child.

It began when I pleaded, prayed, begged for my dog to live and there was no answer. That’s when the war began within me. The emotional pain was so deep the only way I can deal with it was indeed to propel it off of me, to the authority that I felt was responsible. Even though it was my horse Patches that trounced my dog, mangling it badly, I loved Patches. I knew he would never hurt me, Skipper or anyone.

I screamed in full on blame at God, “How dare you take Skipper away. I hate your world, and when I’m a grown up, I’m going to get you. You’re a bully, and the rant and raving went on for a great deal of my life.

I vowed to learn everything I could about God, so one day I could over throw him. Certainly when I ran the world, death would no longer exist.

I became the most attentive person in Sunday school, learning everything I could. My grandmother said everything good that happened was because of God and everything bad that happened was the Devil. But when I questioned my Sunday school teachers and my pastor, was it the Devil that sent the plagues, flooded the earth with only Noah and his boat full surviving, the answer was no, that was God. Certainly that’s all the proof that I needed that God was one angry out of control being, and needed to be replaced. Not everything mind you, just the harmful parts like death.

Amazing when I think of it, that’s it’s this conflict that propelled me to travel to six continents around the planet, immersing myself into as many different religious and spiritual cultures as possible. It wasn’t love of God, but conflict with God, which is both embarrassing and freeing to admit.

Knowledge wasn’t my God, I was more interested in the people that were full of joy, of bliss as they expressed their religious beliefs living their lives. Indeed I’d want to keep those parts, but I’d also keep my eagle eye looking for any harmful parts that hurt people from my viewpoint of course.

And that’s when we found the similarity between religions, each being a road map to attain virtues.  And creating the Virtue Mastery Course to see if we could end up with the same results without the dogma of religions which is covered in the first part of this book.  And to discover to me what were the harmful parts of God and the good parts –included in the Story Line of the The Enigma.

Finally imagine, I’ve resolved my conflict with God, or a God, or whoever created Life – The Ultimate Virtual Reality Game that we play out each and every day of our lives, in our pursuit to become winners in each of these scenarios and indeed to end up as heroes in each.

And being a woman, I do find Life as a game too much a war game, even though I understand that war games are very popular with most people, especially men. But no longer do I have a need to overthrow it, I’ve just moved over to the side and created my own life’s game, which is not based on war, conflict.

And it’s beginning to look like to me that indeed physical immortality may indeed be a reality in my lifetime.  And I just hope to do my part in making the game as I understand it known so that those that choose can play the game consciously, without the negative conflict. Yet I do understand without the conflict with God as my negative motivator, I’m not sure I would have discovered what I did. So at least I totally understand the good part of the conflict, the desire to triumph over the harmful parts of anything, even of God. It’s the way we triumph of course that makes all the difference, one path leads you to the villain loser role and another path leads you to the hero role.

So let me ask you, is this one of the scenarios that you’ve been embroiled in during your life?  And if so, get in touch with the emotions that you expressed, and more important where are you today with regard to this scenario? What role are you playing out - victim, villain or hero?

Actually I’ve decided to write about this scenario once again, as it’s one I’ve been totally engaged in my entire life. Besides, for the last half hour, I was once again making a plea, this time to the doctor to help him understand my mother’s plea, and I’m in the waiting room waiting for Mother to come out of surgery.

Mother will be 87 in three weeks, and her spine has worn out, but there’s a new operation that can indeed rebuild her spine for her, putting little pillows in between. As Mother must have four sections done, and each one takes about an hour to do, he wants to do the operation in two parts. But my Mother wants it all done in one operation, and she’s quite fit, does strenuous exercise for thirty minutes each day, walks, is healthy and believes she can go through a four hour operation once, healing time, etc.

And the doctor is hesitant because of her age, and Mother couldn’t express herself well, so I became her spokesperson and connected with the doctor from the deepest part of my heart while I spoke for her, telling him that her mother lived to a hundred in good health, and we expect the same for Mother and to really look at her records which show health and fitness. Amazing Mother doesn’t even wear glasses for driving, just had her eyes tested and again they are 20/20 and the list goes on. Finally he said before going into surgery, if she’s doing well, he will do the whole procedure, it will depend on how she does. And with my Mother’s intention, I’m sure she will do fine. But the point is the plea for understanding, and the depth of feeling that needs to be expressed to have a chance when it’s a doubtful outcome.

Why a Plea Spokesperson?

Maybe I could explain it by my life force, my energy which has always been strong since the very beginning which has always pulled me to help those that seemed weaker.

Possibly I could explain it by my Astropsychology information – I have a Moon in Libra in the Scorpio house, which has compelled me to speak for anyone in my environment that found it difficult to speak up, to present the other person’s side, their viewpoint in a conflict. With my Libra being in the Scorpio house, it seems I’ve always been able to feel and sense what wasn’t out in the open, probing deeper for understandings that even the person wasn’t aware of. I’ve made pleas for spouses for understanding of the harmful actions of their spouse, or their child, pleas for people to be understood that were misunderstood over and over. And when I was successful, then forgiveness could begin. I

And what I learned is that my plea for understanding would need to be emotion filled, to show the genuine hurt of the other person, their remorse. This hurt would seem to penetrate the hardest, most closed off person, to touch maybe their hearts, and then they could listen. If I made a plea for understanding presenting a case that was logical, well thought out, but mental, the chances of mental understanding might be good, but did not penetrate the heart and far too often I would not be successful. But when I could discover and feel the genuine hurt in the other person and present that, then the hero would emerge in the other person, if indeed I was in the presence of a hero, no matter how submerged. But if I were in the presence of a villain personality, someone that loved to hurt, the plea would fall on deaf ears and absent heart. After awhile I learned that with some investigation, this villain personality’s own actions were harmful, hurtful, and if I or someone did some digging, we could expose and discredit this person, which would make way for an appeal to someone else, usually to a hero type personality.

Probably the most challenging plea though was to clients to get them to understand the different parts of themselves, when they just couldn’t understand why their ideals and their actions could sometimes be so different. Their mind said one thing, but when their emotions rejected what the mind was saying, there was no follow through. And the hurt they caused to people they loved was more than they could bear. And I’d make my plea, would they rather live in a prison like this the rest of their lives repeating the same scenario over and over with same old faces, new ones or would they be willing to do the emotional work necessary to become free. And if my plea was strong enough to help them indeed feel the prison they were in, the work to become their own hero could begin in earnest.

The most difficult though was in helping my clients understand their dark side, their animal nature, their dragon that lurked in the shadows tempting and testing them. To show the beauty of the dark within themselves, to partner with this part of themselves to become free evoked the deepest pleas within me.

As long as I’m in this dimension myself, I expect to be a full on participant in this scenario. It takes deep heart connections to feel the other person’s pain, their hurts, and to make a plea for them. Feeling heartfelt appreciation and words like “now I finally understand myself, or my spouse, or my child has made it all worthwhile. “

I’d like to think that I’m touching into something much deeper than what life presents its face to be, but the underlying reason, the underlying purpose of life, to make heroes and heroines out of all of us no matter how it looks when we’re entrenched into one scenario. Even this book is a plea when I really think about it, to help people like myself that were always searching for the answers, for the hidden meaning in life’s events. To provide answers, an understanding that life is an educational, interactive game. Life is not unfair, there’s a deeper meaning, a hidden understanding which reveals itself each time we make the right decision, our feelings automatically accept, and our actions become congruent. We all have the chance to become our own heroes and heroines, by going through life’s experiences and walking away with the virtues that were imbedded in the scenario.

Next conflict with God

Scenario Three

The star of this emotional scenario is the victim whose hurt is unbearable, who cries out in emotional pain to be saved, to be spared. This emotional scenario puts the person in touch with their deepest hurt, a feeling like the person will die if not helped. It can also be a plea from another person to save the victim, but without a doubt this emotional hurt is felt deeply within this person also. It’s not a mental plea, but a deep heart wrenching plea.

The plea is so emotional, so heart wrenching that it will invoke the hero role in most people the desire to save, to help, to stop the hurting. If the plea is to a villain though, it will not work, as villains enjoy hurting and love the power they have over the weak. And many a villain posing as a victim has snookered  a hero that hears the words but cannot feel someone who truly hurts and someone who is manipulating and pretending hurt.

The plea also often is not to a human but to the supernatural, to stop or ward off disasters. It’s a prayer of the deepest magnitude to God, or a god to heal the sick, for help in a war against their enemies. The plea is to anyone who has power over the weaker or victim personage.

In a family setting, it can be a child’s plea to a parent for help, a spouse’s plea not to hurt their child, or a child’s plea to an alcoholic parent not to hurt the other parent. For sure though, it’s an emotional plea for mercy.

Personal Childhood Memory of My Heart Wrenching Plea-

One hot summer’s day, in the late afternoon, I was out horseback riding on Patches; with my little dog Skipper running alongside of us. I was singing at the top of my lungs “Jesus Loves Me and truly happy. Then suddenly, Patches abruptly swung to the left to avoid a prairie dog hole. And my precious little dog got caught under Patches hoofs and was badly mangled, yelping in pain with blood gushing out of his head.

With all my heart and soul, I made a plea, an urgent emotional request to Jesus, then to God to save my dog, to spare him. I was on my bended knees praying, begging, to save Skipper, to not take him away from me. I made a plea for understanding, trying to explain my own needs. “God, please, my father left before I was born, my mother left to find work in the city, I have no brothers and sisters, my horse Patches and Skipper are my family. Please, please, as I prayed with all my heart and soul to no avail, as he yelped even louder, and his blood soaked through to my clothes, as I held Skipper tightly in my arms. No help came though, and I decided that I’d rather Skipper die than live a life in such deep pain. It’s then that I started to pray, to plea for Skipper’s pain to go away, for him to die if need, to go to heaven. That’s the prayer that was answered, as he did die shortly, and part of me died right with him.

Even writing this, I can still touch into the deep emotional pain that I experienced at that time, and the impact that this scenario made upon my life.  For sure this propelled me into the next scenario, Conflict with God.

Alright, here’s the table of contents for newest book in progress -

The Enigma - Understanding God and the World

Introduction
  Conflicts since Cain and Abel
1. The Devil’s Playground
  As long as dualities exist mankind will suffer
2. The Basket Cases - The Failure of Traditional Solutions
  a. You can pedal till you drop, eventually you will have Sex
  (Religious Transcendence)
  b. You can preach until the cows come home, it won’t change a thing
  (Rational Education)
  c. Even if you feel good about it: your toothbrush is not your dog
  (Psychology)
  d. Don’t patch the wall when the roof is leaking (the good
  sociologists pampering ‘misunderstood poor victims of circumstance’ =
  the villains)
3. The Nature of the Beast (4 aspects)
  a. lacking drive (the emotions)
  b. mind over matter - oh yeah?
  c. matter matters (body)
  d. there was something else, what was it? (spirit)
4. Pitchforks and Halos (the nature of conflicts)
  a. The bottom line (goodness triumphs over evil)
  b. The damsel in distress (victim)
  c. The Devil’s apprentice (villain)
  d. The knight in shining armor (hero)
5. The Learning Curve
  a. from sluggard to roadrunner and back again (the cycle of energy)
  b. vices are virtues in the making
  c. graduation to the next level (junior to senior)
6. The 36 Scenarios
  a. Disaster
  b. Enigma
  c. ?
7. Mastery
  a. the snake tamer (the dragon)
  b. passion
  c. the diplomat (40-40)

38 scenarios - Scenario Two – The Enigma

Definition Enigma – a person, event, situation, secret, or unknown that baffles understanding and cannot be explained. It’s a mystery, riddle, puzzle of the highest intensity as in the unsolvable problem and the seeker becomes obsessed to finding its answer

Key words: guarded secret, mystery of mysteries, freedom, imprisonment, unexplored ground, pioneer, the unfamiliar, magic, supernatural phenomena, unknown, invisible, puzzle, riddle, baffles understanding, psychic, magic, intuitive, problem solve for heart, deep, thoughtful, reflective, discovery, profound, perception, wisdom – applying knowledge for heart matters, insightful, weighty, intense, beyond the norm, pioneering, alternative, ability to deal with rejection – no that’s not right, you are too different, revelation, awareness, light bulb going off, daunting, brain teaser

Virtues to Be developed – honesty, integrity, heart understanding, discerning, discriminating, inclusive, reasoning, acceptance of self, communication, simplicity, wide minded, objective, thorough,

Mantra for the enigma scenario: Think with your heart, love with your mind!

Scenario a Variation of the Tired Old Plot
All scenarios are part of the Story Line of Goodness Triumphs Over Adversity and the advanced version is Goodness Triumphs Over Evil. In this case the unknown, the unexplained, the problem itself is the adversity to overcome. If the unknown is sinister, evil, causing great harm, then goodness will become obsessed with triumphing over this evil and to find solutions that are not harmful.

Goodness is the seeker wanting to know the answers for the goodness of everyone. Evil is the villain seeking answers for its own wealth, its own taking, its own power, holding the secrets to enslave others.

Roles:

Victim: the one baffled, bewildered, bothered, imprisoned, confusion, confounded, puzzled, In a dilemma, dismayed, discomforted, agitated, helpless, hopeless, the total effect of the situation, event, secret, person or unknown. Way too complicated for victim to problem solve, becomes dependent on others understanding of something far too complex to grasp. Still the victim feels obsessed, almost as if it will die If not understood. On the side of good, real damsel in distress.

Villain – The villain will also be obsessed to knowing the answer, but for his own power, his own fame, his own wealth and to hurt others with answers. The answer is power, no matter how many people are hurt in the process……..class of the end justifies the means. No heart, people expendable, answer is supreme. And as the villain enjoys secrets, disguises, most difficult of all to understand of the roles. Enjoys hurting just to hurt, to see someone squirm when they have power, abuse the week with knowledge, power.

Hero – obsessed to finding the answers, first to save those that are afflicted, ill with unsolvable illness’s, must find the solutions to save. Now the hero goes after those that hold the power, the secrets, the unknown to enslave others, to triumph over and then give the knowledge, the solutions so that everyone may benefit.

And then inside you have the good that wants to find the answers, the devil or dragon that tests you every step of the way, tries to thwart your finding the solutions, as you would discover this shadow inside of it. The Dragon is the ultimate enigma for each participant in life, to discover what can’t be seen, lurks in the shadows and constantly trying to overthrow you.

Vocations – private detective, counselor, scientist, inventor, cop unsolved crime, There’s so many ways to be a part of this scenario, a cop solving an unsolvable crime – just look at what DNA is opening up to us now, who’s your parent? Astronaut, Exploring unexplored ground, engineer,

We’re in Age of Aquarius now and the promise is that nothing will be left unknown. It’s the great solver of every Enigma. Everyone now has a chance, knowledge used to be held by few, and now internet is ensuring anything we want to know we can know…………the good will use the knowledge for good and evil will use the knowledge to hurt and harm. The Age of Pisces was for dictators, gurus, holding power, knowledge for the few. Now we are taking it out of the few and making known to all that seek.

Movies are a great way to learn. Let’s look at some of the movies that have been based on this theme – the Enigma, the mystery, the riddle.

Mystery – One website I looked up at fifty of the top rated mystery movies. You can look up the website and see more or find other websites or libraries: Here’s one - www.imdb.com/chart/mystery - 62k -

Rear Window, North by Northwest, The Maltese Falcon, Vertigo, Citizen Kane, Chinatown, The Manchurian Candidate, The Bourne Ultimatum, Mystic River, Mulholland Drive

Metaphysical movies answering the meaning of life type questions? Here’s a few - The Matrix, Groundhog Day, Day being John Malkovich, The Truman Show, 2001-A Space Oddssey, My Dinner with Andre, Cube, American Beauty, Altered States, Dark City, Run Lulu Run, Alice in Wonderland, Tax Driver, The Wizard of Oz

Paranormal Movies: The Others, Poltergiest, close Encounters of the 3^rd Kind, The Sixth Sense, Frankenstein, Stargate, The devil’s advocate, The Exorcist

Ghost Movies – For a much more complete list go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghost_movies

• Here’s a few -Poltergeist movies, The Other Side of the Tracks, House on Haunted Hill, Haunted, Ghostbusters, The Ghost and Mrs. Muir, The Amityville Horror movies, Candyman: Farewell to the Flesh, The Abandoned

There’s no question, this is the scenario that has been my training ground from victim, to villain to heroine. I’ve been truly obsessed from this scenario and the Ultimate Game is indeed the answers that I found along the way in evolving from victim to villain to hero. Just look at what I wrote about Who is Loy?

Hi, I am Loy Young and I have got a question for you:

Adventure - what is it to you? 
Racing down the track in an F1 Ferrari? 
Heli-skiing in the Alps?
Sailing single-handedly around the globe? 
Barehanded bull wrestling?
Orbiting the earth in a NASA capsule?

The ultimate adventure for me has always been and still is seeking to understand the contrast between our spiritual ideals and our human behavior.  In spite of our high spiritual principles, religious teachings and incredible scientific advancements, I have found little change in the way we deal with each other over the years.  In fact, human nature today appears not to have progressed much from the time of Cain and Abel. Why? - I wanted to know.

The mystery I felt compelled to unravel led me far into the depths of darkness of our human consciousness.  That might not be everybody’s idea of fun, but it was pure excitement to me: my destiny was beckoning.

My quest grabbed me by the scruff of my neck and plunged me into four decades of risky adventures and travels over six continents, confronting me with people from all walks of life — from cosmopolitan jet-setters to rural villagers in remote places with tribal cultures and religions all their own.  Whenever I found an answer that proved to be beneficial to me and the people around me, I would write and speak about it, teach classes, and use it in counseling with those who sought my guidance.   Some of my findings indeed proved valuable, others turned out to be counterfeit or half-truths, spiriting me on my way again.

It was often a perilous journey.  I nearly drowned in the sea of opposites many times. Yet the search was not in vain; I did find the answers that I was seeking.

And now let me introduce to you the last player of the game.

Remember this game is based on dualities. Even the story line is a duality – goodness-evil. Finding the middle path between the dualities becomes the quest.

During all stages of the game there is always another power hidden in the shadows, an invisible player.

It has been variously called the Devil, The Dragon, The Shadow, the Dark Side, the Animal Nature, or the Inner Villain.

I personally like to call it The Devil, but then I was brought up Southern Baptist, listening to one biblical story after another, and I loved the story of Jesus being tempted by the Devil but not giving in.  And I like the idea of having my own little Devil in me always trying to tempt me, and I like saying when I finally get it I’m being tempted and it’s not me, “Get thee behind me Satan” and triumph over the temptation. or the Dragon. When I talk to my clients though that don’t share my religious upbringing, I use Dragon or Animal Nature or Inner Villain.

By whatever name, this is the tempter that always tries to thwart your progress, to lure into cheap thrills and to destroy you.

For a long time we need other players to keep us from reaching out goals.

But if you remember the mirror you will keep asking, “what part of me is this person trying to show me?”

When you discover your own tester lurking in the shadows, the most advanced part of the game begins inside of you.

While the spiritual nature is trying to teach the physical, emotional, and mental aspects virtues, the Dragon tempts them with every possible vice and addiction, so they lose the game and the Dark Side wins. In the first stage of the game the Inner Villain indeed wins. However, in the second stage the spiritual nature guides us to find balance with all physical addictions, be they food, sex, drugs, or alcohol, with emotional rejection and mental prejudices and arrogance. The second stage is understandably quite long, requiring many repeats, but century after century, the story line doesn’t change, just the actors, the costumes, and the scenery to keep the players interested.

The spiritual nature is evolving also, and prompted by the  Animal Nature (Devil, Dragon)  sheds its righteousness and finally learns to embrace the best of the Dark Side. At this level the game fun, the spiritual nature and its counterpart walk side by  side, fully alive - in balance and have fun.

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That is where the humor begins, not hurtful, but good, clean, mischievous fun.

I can just envision myself, one day lying on the floor dying laughing. What a hoot Life has turned out to be - the Ultimate Game!

Part II

Lula May is my emotional daughter

and inhabits her inner realm.

You can’t see her,

but you sure can feel her, as she’s not shy

but full of passion and delight.

She’s learned how to ride those waves of

emotion and is able to express just what she

feels most of the time. I brought her to South

Africa to learn emotional grace.

Lula May never quite grew

up. She stayed between the ages of seven and

fourteen, with an innocence that borders

on the naive. She believes in people

and is convinced she can find their

heart no matter how deep it is hidden, and

most of the time, she does just that.

Of course, as my emotional child, she was so vulnerable

that I often worried about her, even though she

put up a tough facade.

Luckily, I, could see behind her mask

and would always pull her back to her

sensitive and loving side when she got out of hand.

Lula May really has occupied my attention the last

ten years. Only

this year did she complete her finishing school

in the mountains of North Carolina.

She’s always been sensitive but maybe just a little too

passionate. She was

an emotional bungee jumper,

at times even an emotional terrorist.

The real lesson

she learned where they made moonshine in

the hills of North Carolina. She learned the hard

way through big emotional falls

that she needed to express her emotions in a way

that would feel safe to others.

She learned that by now even though

she is far from perfect. Lula May will continue to evolve

but I’m no longer worried about her, she knows the

road to take toward balance now and it’s just a matter

of continuing through one safe emotional step after

another on a long journey that leads to infinity.

Part III

Lulu, my mental child, ran the early part of my life.

From the start she wanted

to know the answer to everything from the meaning

of life to how many dogs lived on the moon.

You just couldn’t stop her inquisitive mind, and

straight from the beginning she knew why she was here:

to learn all about herself and solve the riddle of the meaning

of life. Each time she learned

something of value, she shared it with

others. That’s the way she intended to live,

not in an ivory tower but by being a part of life.

Lulu says that’s not her real name, and she’s not

from this planet, but it’s a name that’s as good

as any on this side of the moon. Lulu says she

is also immortal as I am, and she’s here to

help this planet become part of the union of

immortals.

She says she’s an inner scientist, and

seems to be intent on finding every possible

complexity of life and reducing it to simplicity. Sometimes

she used to go out looking for problems just so

she could prove to herself she could solve them.

My other two children were totally intimidated by

Lulu for most of their lives. She

ran the show. But as time went by, Lulu began

to see Lula May’s value, and now they are truly

happy working side by side – Lulu solves

problems of the heart for Lula May. They both

acknowledge it is Lula Belle’s time now.

So those are my three daughters, and they have

three quite different voices, which is why sometimes

I go forward, then backward and then sideways when

I’m making a decision. It’s a task and a half

getting a joint decision from these three young

ladies, I assure you.

So I have my hands full like any mother…

and maybe you thought

I had a multiple personality and didn’t realize

I’m made up of multiple selves.

I’ve been down

the same road as these three young ladies, and what

I didn’t learn or rather didn’t fully balance when

I was being each of them, I’m sure learning

now. I don’t need another child, I assure you..

I’ve got my hands full for the rest of my life, as

these children never leave home.

And if you’ll listen really carefully, you may

begin to hear multiple voices inside your own

head and discover you’re just like me.

A soulful parent helping your three children..

your physical, emotional, and mental child

learn to be an integrated team. It’s for certain

that you’ll end up with another

soul quality to your name… patience.

In short: the soul directs the players, inside of ourselves and out. In the physical dimension, our Planet Earth provides the dualistic environment for the player. During the last stage of the game the soul apprentices the players’ spiritual nature to shepherd their physical, emotional and mental selves towards balance. This training takes the form of relationships in which experiences are repeated until the lesson is learned and the weakness is turned into strength.

And now let me introduce to you the last player of the game.

Remember this game is based on dualities. Even the story line is a duality – goodness-evil. Finding the middle path between the dualities becomes the quest.

During all stages of the game there is always another power hidden in the shadows, an invisible player. It has been variously called the Devil, The Dragon, The Shadow, the Dark Side, the Animal Nature, or the Inner Villain. This is the tempter that always tries to thwart your progress, to lure into cheap thrills and to destroy you.

For a long time we need other players to keep us from reaching out goals. But if you remember the mirror you will keep asking, “what part of me is this person trying to show me?” When you discover your own tester lurking in the shadows, the most advanced part of the game begins inside of you.

While the spiritual nature is trying to teach the physical, emotional, and mental aspects virtues, the Dragon tempts them with every possible vice and addiction, so they lose the game and the Dark Side wins. In the first stage of the game the Inner Villain indeed wins. However, in the second stage the spiritual nature guides us to find balance with all physical addictions, be they food, sex, drugs, or alcohol, with emotional rejection and mental prejudices and arrogance. The second stage is understandably quite long, requiring many repeats, but century after century, the story line doesn’t change, just the actors, the costumes, and the scenery to keep the players interested.

The spiritual nature is evolving also, and prompted by the Animal Nature sheds its righteousness and finally learns to embrace the best of the Dark Side. At this level the game fun, the spiritual nature and its counterpart walk arm in arm, in balance and have fun. That is where the humor begins, not hurtful, but good, clean, mischievous fun.

On our path to becoming a winner in the game of life, we swing from victim to villain role until we find our balance physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually, becoming our own heroine.

The journey provides the diversion and the thrill while the soul in another dimension essentially pulls the strings until all four aspects are fully developed.

Much like a mirror on the wall to show our beauty spots and our warts other players are attracted into our lives to highlight our strength and – even more importantly – our weaknesses so that we can become aware of them and work on them. Each player awakens to his own characteristics by the contrast with other participants in the game.

Parents for instance may be unconscious of their own vices which I call  virtues in the making until their children start to mimic them. That is why relationships are so important in life as it is quite difficult to discover yourself on your own.

However, at the final stage of the game a player will have developed a sense for her four aspects. Here is my own example:

My Children

Do I have children, you ask?

Not in a traditional

sense.

But I have children. Only one

can you see, and you might even

think she is me,

unless you

know the secret that I am

not my body.

So before I confuse you, let

me introduce you to my sometimes

slothful child, who never

plans to leave home. Her

name like my grandmother’s

is Lula Belle

Lula Belle is my physical child

who has a loud rebellious

voice and screams inside

my head, “Gimme

gimme gimme,” especially when we

walk past a donut store.

She screams for candies,

for sugars, but especially

for coca cola with ground peanuts

inside.

I can never

buy a box of candy, or she’d

eat it whole in one gloriously

greedy sitting.

I have to buy only what I will

allow her to eat that day, or

she’d be up sleepwalking

while I’m away in my dreams.

WEIGHT

Lula Belle’s always fighting

with her weight. If I let her,

she’d become heavy as a hippopotamus

or an elephant loving to charge

at any one who threatened her territory.

I’m constantly giving

her visions of being sleek as a

a leopard that wild game hunters

stalk, but rarely

catch.

After a few months as a sleek

predator, she gets bored with elegance.

Besides she’s scared one of the

hunters might catch her, and she’d get

devoured. Then I have to hold in

the reins, calming her fears.

If I don’t, she becomes a ravenous hunter

herself, looking for the next supper.

Balance she has not found.

I still ask myself sometimes, “How

come Lula Belle is so average,

when her genes come from the most

handsome of men and the most beautiful

of women?”

HAIR

Lula Belle dyes her hair compulsively.

At the slightest upset, she dyes her

hair light reddish blonde - Nice’n Easy.

She buys it by the case ,

not leaving room in my garage for the car.

Underneath she has mousy, stringy

brown hair. Wait a minute, who’s kidding who?

Lula Belle probably has

all white hair now with streaks of

silver cascading down, but we’ll never

know that, if she has her way.

We almost found out just how much grey

and white hair Lula Belle

really had, as I had decided to age gracefully

while in South Africa

and to cease dying our hair.

But Lula Belle protested so

loud and showed me that she might be

mistaken for some poor grey haired lady

who’d be mugged right on the spot.

So against my better judgment, I’ve let

her continue to dye her hair red, at

least for the moment.

But then Lula Belle began dying her

hair when she was really young. She

said she couldn’t help it if God made

a mistake, she was supposed to be a

redhead to go with her fiery temperament.

She claimed she came here to help God anyway,

and she might as well start with her,

and with that she started pouring mercurochrome

and iodine on her hair after she barely

began to talk.

I well remember my first

argument with her about that red hair.

I should have known that she’d always

outtalk me, and I’d give in.

Learning to say “No” to Lula Belle has really

given me a workout.

I can still be conned

and cajoled, like any mother,

spiritual or no.

I’m still evolving myself.

THE WILD SIDE

Without strong control, Lula

Belle would walk only

the wild side. She’d

be between every sheet,

lusting after everyone

in sight.

She thinks that

when you love, it should

be taken to a conclusion,

and never wants to stop

her love above the waist.

I learned long ago

that my physical body is a part of

me, but not me.

DRINK

Lula Belle is such an addictive

child that if left unbridled,

she would run wild among all

the liquor stores, just like her father.

He never learned what the word

“no” meant, and neither has

she.

Boundaries and rules are

just meant to be broken as

far as either were concerned.

Ageless

Imagine a middle aged woman

with Lula Belle as her child, but then I’m

far older, actually ageless.

Lula Belle doesn’t think it was fair that I

am immortal and ageless, while she still

responds to gravity. She doesn’t want her

body lying in the ground for worms to crawl

through, nor does she want it to go up in

flames and her ashes thrown all about.

Last year she found a solution

that ensures her resurrection and her immortality.

Now she’s always hounding me to hurry up and

finish my mission so her organs can be given

to those patients who need transplants.

She’s got this

scheme of how by giving out her different

parts, she could be in as many as fifty people

at a time, and then when it’s their time to die,

she can be transplanted to other bodies.

Then she’ll be just like me and never die.

She’s a wild woman that Lula Belle,

and there’s no ignoring her, that’s for

sure.

So where am I you ask? Well, I’m usually about

three feet behind Lula Belle’s head with a panoramic

view of my territory, both inside and out.

Coming tomorrow - my other two children and then the most formidable player of the game!

From George Polti in 1868
He showed that disasters are the oft-recurring refrain of the Biblical books with floods, plagues and the like. And what are the Fall of Troy? The Mystery of Adam – 12^th Century. A Monarch Overthrown – Shakespear’s Henry VI and Richard II. Historic human made disasters – Charles I, Louis AKAVI, Napoleon, Colomb, Children Lost by Their Parents – Le Petit Pucet.

I’m now going to include some emotional training for Disasters here, this is the first of the thirty six scenarios that I’m writing about. However, this same emotional exercise works with any and all of the thirty six scenarios.

Emotional Training for Disasters.

Training for Disasters but really all 36 scenarios. For Movies, Books, Plays, Movies, all Media’s.

Drama, be it tragedy or comedy, is what our feelings thrive on. Unfortunately no amount of logic, facts or figures can ever change feelings. Emotions need action, drama and stories to learn from and to change.

So indeed one of the training’s you can do is to watch movies, read books, attend plays but consciously.

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1. Look at the list of media as you go through the 36 scenarios and add more than you can think of or find if you’d like.

!. Write down – what was the plot or story line — What goodness triumphed over what evil?

Or minimum What goodness triumphed over what adversity?

2. Who was the starring victim? Write down how they acted out the role? What emotions did they express? Write down the emotions you observed. You might like to add more of your own that you’ve experienced or seen also.

Victim Feelings

Hurt >Suffering> Emotional Pain

Sadness > Sorrow >Grief>Despair

Disappointment> > Depression

Incapacity Submissiveness >Dependency

Hopeless >Helpless> Powerless

Submissive > Fragile >Dependent

Feeling Rejected >Unhappy>Miserable

Anguish >Frustration>

Anxious >nervous

Fearful >Desperate >Terror

Naiveté’ - undiscerning

Shame >regret>guilt

Shock >surprise >numb - disconnection

Low Self Esteem > Feeling of Total failure

3. And really discover yourself, do you have any similarities with the victim in the movie? If so, keep those in mind as you continue.

4. Now in your mind, I want you to imagine yourself in this role, first as the victim fully. Feel and express as many of the victim emotions as you can. Instead of being a victim, now that you’ve seen the movie, change the ending maybe both for the character in the movie itself, but most importantly for you.

5. Then decide you want to become your own hero, and change your feeling to one of triumph, to become victorious, of saving yourself. And now make sure that you’ve included any of those similarities between you and the victim in the movie, as you’ll need to overcome that part of you, that’s your own adversity that you must triumph over.

For example, let’s say the victim in the movie was depressed, felt hopeless. also. First, feel yourself conquering these weakness’s, either by yourself or with the encouragement of other people. And then with this ending, write the story of everyone applauding you, giving your great acceptance for triumphing, saving yourself. But more important, feel the feeling of triumph, of goodness within yourself, give yourself great acceptance for finding an ending other than was in the movie.

3. Now let’s discover the villain in the movie you saw? Who was it? Describe the villain’s role, and how they expressed themselves in this role so indeed you could identify them. You might like to add more of your own that you’ve experienced or seen also.

Dissatisfied >Hate

Destructive > warring > Murderous

Take Over Energy>Over Powering >Over Controlling

Insatiable > Addictive >Immoral

Reckless >Out of Control> Fun

Selfish - Taking energy

Manipulative >Tempting

Seduction acting like Love

Arrogant>Fanatical >Prejudiced>Bigoted

Clever >Cunning >Conniving >Covert >Cruel

Charming >Smooth Talker > Irresistible

Paranoia

Justified >Blame

Did the villain get triumphed over? If so, how? Or was the villain glamorized? What attributes did the villain express that you found quite irresistible?

Now it’s your turn, take the same movie, and you feel yourself as the star villain in the movie? First ask yourself, do you have any characteristics that are similar to the villain’s role, like any addictions that are the same?

And now you’re going to rewrite the ending. And now instead of someone triumphing over you, how about you triumph over yourself, turn yourself into your own victim. As that’s the only place that you have a chance of being rehabilitated, finding the tender emotions inside of you that could connect you with your goodness. And know that everyone loves a reformed sinner, a reformed villain, it’s the most seductive of all roles. So triumph over yourself, reform yourself, both in this exercise and in real life. It can be done.

3. Review the heroine role or roles, and identify the way they saved the victims and/or triumphed over the villains. Put yourself into the movie or media of your choice as if you were the star. If it was a movie that just saved the victims, feel the love, the appreciation, the gratitude.

Then watch carefully to see did the hero was a real hero, or even though it looked as if he/she won, they became like the villain, using the same feelings as villains do. Or did the hero truly become a winner, using these emotions. Remember, the hero is the winning role, and these are the heroes emotions to use, all with savings victims, less when dealing with villains. You might like to add more of your own that you’ve experienced or seen also.

Powerful

Perseverance

Compassion

Good Strength

Giving

Caring

Determined

Accountable

Nurturing

Idealistic

Inspiration

Good Control

Discipline

Helpful

INCLUSIVE

Patience

Sacrifice

Discriminating

Humility

Courageous

Passionate

Kind

Dynamic

Loving

You want to imagine yourself in this same plot, the same one of the 36 scenarios and be the hero or heroine. Have fun really expressing the full range of these emotions.

Training Ground – Movies, Books, Plays.

As our emotions only learn through stories, dramas, tragedies, one way to indeed emotionally educate yourself, to prepare for the real event that could one day take place in your life is indeed to watch movies, and triumph over any fears you might have of these disasters that take place almost daily on our Planet Earth stage.
And if your emotions get really involved, don’t be surprised if your physical body wants to take action, imitate what it’s seen. That’s why when violence is glamorized in movies, it carries off to people’s real lives, to mimic what they’ve seen.

Consciously train yourself through movies……………Imagine, I’m saying go to a movie and I’m even going to list several of these for you based on the kind of disaster is involved. And I’d pick the disaster that was fearful, and watch as many movies as possible in that category. And if you’re afraid of all of them, watch one from each category, then repeat the list.
Let’s Look at the Natural Disasters First. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_disaster_films

Do go to their website link. For most, if you click on the movie title, like the first one, The Core, it then brings up the plot, the characters, and even quotes. Maybe you’ve already seen it and can remember it as you read what is on the webpage. If not, see if you can get the movie. I’m sure you can rent a minimum of one movie under each of the natural disaster’s categories. I just briefly checked for rental + The Core + 2003 Movie and found many places to rent. Here’s one.
www.netflix.com/Movie/The_Core/60024918?&mqso=70002140&trkid=129129 - 21k –

So here’s a partial list taken from Wikipedia of the Natural Disasters, and I’m listing only recent ones that you should be able to find to watch. Be sure and look at the website itself, as there are many more movies than I’m listing. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_disaster_films

Geological disasters

• The Core (2003)
• On Hostile Ground (2000)

Avalanches

• Avalanche (2001)
• Avalanche Alley (2001)
• Trapped: Buried Alive (2002)

Earthquakes

• 10.5: Apocalypse (2006)
• Aftershock: Earthquake in New York (1999)
• Crack in the World (1965)

Volcanoes

• Dragon Head (2003)
• End Day (2005)
• Pompeii: The Last Day (docudrama) (2003)

Floods and tidal waves

• Killer Wave (mini series (2007)
• 10.5: Apocalypse (2006)
• The Day After Tomorrow (2004)

Climatic disasters

• Category 6: Day of Destruction (2004)
• Category 7: The End of the World (2005)
• The Perfect Storm (2000)

Global warming

• The 11th Hour (2007)
• Earth (2007)
• The Day After Tomorrow (2004)

Tornadoes

• Category 7: The End of the World (2005)
• Night of the Twisters (1996)
• Twister (1996)

Fires

• Firestorm (1998)
• Inferno (1998)
• The Towering Inferno (1974)

Epidemics

• Twelve Monkeys (1995)
• 28 Days Later (2002)
• Fatal Contact: Bird Flu in America (2006)

Space disasters

• Anna’s Storm (2007)
• Armageddon (1998)
• Asteroid (1997)

Time for Human Made Disasters

And once you’ve finished with natural disasters do the same with human made disaster films, or books. Here’s the list again of human made disasters. Human Made Disasters http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_disaster_films

• And what about those human made disasters from those of us that are avatars in the Soul Game? How about – crime, terrorism, war, hazardous materials – chemical disasters, nuclear disasters, transportation disasters of airplanes, cars and trucks, ships and submarines, trains, other vehicles, robots and other machines, animals, plants, even extraterrestrials maybe.

• Blackout (1978)
• From Beyond (1985)
• Locusts (2005)
• On Deadly Ground (1994)
• The Philadelphia Experiment (1984)
• The Quiet Earth (1985)
• Shadowzone